fooled around (text)

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His spark skipped a beat as he comprehended Ratchet's text. He wished then and there that he could be at the medic's side, if only to give him tangible, concrete proof that he was okay.

   To: Ratchet

its okay to be scared by things, but you cant let em consume you. it's okay, though. i promise i'm alright

   To: Ratchet

stayin up late is my specialty, sunshine. besides, there isnt anything i wouldn't love to do more than talk to you. whatcha wanna talk about? im game for anything

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I'm glad that you are.  It shakes me a little to even think of it happening, and it wasn't even just you.  There were.. others, but I'll spare you from having to listen to it all.  Or.. read as the case would be.

There's so many things I've had a difficult time letting go of, especially with the loss of Cybertron.  It gets easier, over time, but.. there's many times I wonder if there's more I could have done to have saved our planet.

Ratchet started to smile a little, reading Wheeljack's message.  He really did like talking to him like this, didn't he?  All starting from the incident that initially brought them together as it was.


    To:  Wheeljack

There's only one thing I love more than talking to you, and that's you.  I know that I've said it a lot, but.. I really do.  And sometimes I worry that I won't get another chance to say it, but I think that worry is starting to fade.

    To:  Wheeljack

I meant to ask..  How are the repairs on the Jackhammer?

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   To: Ratchet

you know you can tell me whats scarin you, right? sometimes it's better to tell someone about it, cuz bottling it up aint gonna do you any good. i dont think anyones gonna let go of the loss of cybertron. you arent alone in that at all

   To: Ratchet

aww sunshine. talkin to you is probably the highlight of my day now. i love you too, and i love you even more every day

   To: Ratchet

repairs? ohyeah. i finished those up - im gonna be (finally) droppin by to drop off all this energon for you guys tomorrow. 

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I know that I can, and it's most certainly not because I don't trust you with my fears.  It's that.. everyone has enough on their plates as it is with the Decepticons and the energon shortage.  I don't want to add any more strain on everyone with my worries.. even if they can be obvious at times.

That's why I use our supplies sparingly.. perhaps too much.  I can honestly say for a fact that staying with you for those several days gave me more energy than I've had in a long time.

    To:  Wheeljack

Even if I don't hear your voice, hearing from you always brightens my day no matter how bad it's been.

    To:  Wheeljack

That's wonderful news!  I look forward to seeing you tomorrow.  As promised, I will have high grade prepared for you and we can watch that show you wanted to watch with me.

Not to make it sound like I'm trying to rush you back out, but.. are you going to stay for awhile?  I'm sure that you could use the rest after everything you've been through over the last few days.

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   To: Ratchet

you may want to spare everyone the strain of your worries, but that also means your worries are straining you all the more. you gotta have some sorta outlet, otherwise all that’ll build up and build up and sooner or later you’ll explode cause of it

   To: Ratchet

wait. you sayin you’ve been cutting your rations of fuel??

   To: Ratchet

sunshine, you better not be cutting your rations. please tell me you arent cutting your rations

   To: Ratchet

i was plannin on staying a while if you wanted me to, but i might stick around even longer and make sure you’re actually getting the energon you actually need. we’ve got an energon shortage, yeah, but we’d all be hooped if our medic goes offline cause he was starvin himself

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I.. suppose, but..

What's your outlet?

    To:  Wheeljack

Please don't be upset with me if I say yes..

    To:  Wheeljack

I know that I shouldn't..  Me of all mechs, being a medic.. but with the shortage, with the Decepticons controlling so many energon mines, with all of the new mechs and femmes at the base.. I panicked.  I haven't gotten anywhere with the synthetic energon formula, and I know that others are going to be hurt, and they're going to need the energon..

Primus.. I'm so sorry...

    To:  Wheeljack

I think I'd like that, and not even just for the sole reason of you making sure I get what I need.  I like it when you're around, and I feel much more relaxed.  That's why I enjoy our conversations so much.

I'm.. even willing to share my quarters with you while you stay, unless.. you wanted to stay on your ship that is.

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   To: Ratchet

hey, hey, sunshine, it’s gonna be okay. i aint mad at you (okay i am a little, but it’s more the ‘im so worried mad’ than anything else)

   To: Ratchet

i think i get what you’re sayin, and i thnk i get how your feelin, but droppin your rations aint the way to conserve energon. things are tight with all the new bots around, yeah, but between what we make and what we steal, we’re okay. im gonna make sure you’re provided for, i promise

   To: Ratchet

maybe when i drop in i can take a look at what youve got so far with the synth en. two heads are better than one

   To: Ratchet

i’d. i’d think i’d like sharin your quarters. and it aint just cuz sharin a berth will be fun in more ways than one (cuz it will, if ya know what i mean, so of course id like nothing more, so please imagine me wagglin my browplates at u) but cuz-

idk, i cant say ‘we’ll be recharging together’ cuz we already did that before, but it’d be… a step in what we’ve got together

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

Wheeljack, I..

Thank you..

No one else knows that I have been underfueling, but I trust you.  I know you'll do everything you can you make sure we never run out of energon, and I don't think I can ever thank you quite enough for it.  It may not be the most ideal method out there, but.. it means the world to me that you care about me.

    To:  Wheeljack

You are more than welcome to take a look.  I remember we had once talked about removing some of that rust when it comes to your engineering skills.  Maybe.. with your help, we could do it.  What they said was impossible.

    To:  Wheeljack

I'm going to tell you now..

I really needed that laugh.

But in all honesty, you are more than welcome to stay as long as you want.  I most certainly don't mind recharging with you, but.. do you really think that we're ready for that?  I'm not saying no, but.. I just want to be sure.

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   To: Ratchet

i aint gonna tell anyone… unless you dont start fueling up properly. in which case im gonna tell everyone and then get everyone to hound you. you might think you arent important, but you’re probably the most important one of us all - you put us back together when we get slagged

and if we get more faces around… well, then everyones gotta make due and equally cut back, so no single bot takes a huge hit in fuel rations

   To: Ratchet

and who knows. once my rusty brain gets de-rusted by your tender care, between the two of us, we can work out that synth en formula and we wont even have to worry bout energon supplies anymore

   To: Ratchet

im glad i made u laugh (tho id be lying if i said im not a little serious, just cuz its me)

the thing is tho - we dont have to do anything you dont wanna. if you wanna just lay there and stare at the ceiling in mutual silence, we can do that. if you wanna do wild crazy berthroom acrobatics for the whole night with no stoppin, we can also do that. if you wanna watch movies like we usually do, and cuddle, we can also also do that. i dont wanna pressure you into anything you arent comfortable with

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

So that's how you're going to play it?

You win..  I'll try to fuel up more properly..  Primus knows what will happen if either Optimus or Pharma find out, or even Strongarm for that matter.  I'm glad that it was you who figured it out first, even if I didn't intend for it to be that way.

    To:  Wheeljack

I'll be sure to be careful.  I don't want to end up doing more harm than good.  We'll start slow and then work our way up as you get comfortable with what you're doing in the lab.  I won't throw you to the wolves.

That's.. apparently an Earth saying from what I've read.

    To:  Wheeljack

I'm glad that you did too.  I needed that far more than you'll realize.

Now what would you say if I said that I wouldn't mind doing at least two of those things?  I will admit that.. I'm quite curious.  We can always decide things when you get here, but with the mood I am in now.. I think I want to.  I want to give it a try.

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   To: Ratchet

you bet i will. ill set all three of em on you. i dont even know them but i know i can sic em on u if u dont start fuelin properly - but only if you dont convince me u are. im the nice one cuz im givin you a chance

<3

   To: Ratchet

glad to know u plan on startin me off slow. be gentle with me, its been a long, long time since i used my brain for anythin other than blowin things up

   To: Ratchet

u know my answer will always be ‘frag yeah babe what time do you want me’. but only two of those things? do i get to wait with eager, bated breath to find out which two things ur gonna grace me with?

oooho, tho, if ur in a mood, i think i can guess which things ;DD

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

Thank you for giving me a chance.  I'll be sure to prove it when you come to drop off the energon you absconded with.  I won't do it just for you of course, but I will try my hardest.  It won't be easy at first, but I know you'll help me.

    To:  Wheeljack

Of course I'll take it easy.  Those are parts of your processor you haven't used in some time, and the last thing you need is a processor ache from trying to go to fast with something you may or may not remember as well as you used to.  Just one step at a time.. just like when your leg was healing.

    To:  Wheeljack

Babe..?

I said at least two.  That doesn't mean I don't want to all three.  I could keep you in suspense if you want, but I think I'll give you a hint.  Yes.. right now you have me in that mood.  You really are getting good at this, aren't you?

    To:  Wheeljack

Wheeljack?  Thank you for staying awake and talking with me.  I'm feeling much calmer now.

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   To: Ratchet

Aw, i appreciate your very diligent concern. Im sure under your careful watch i wont suffer from any debilitating processor crashes cuz of math or physics or complex string theory equations

   To: Ratchet

aww yiss we’re gonna watch movies so hard, and our silent staring at the ceiling is gonna be so hot n steamy 

;D

   To: Ratchet

no problem, sunshine. this is what i’m here for. whenever you wake up or are scared, dont be afraid to send me a message, or a comm, okay?

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I won't let you suffer from any sort of damage, and even if something were to accidentally happen I would take care of you.  You and I both know that.

Besides.. I would feel guilty if I did something that caused harm to you.

    To:  Wheeljack

I don't know, Wheeljack.  I might surprise you yet.  For all you know, one of those two things is the one that I don't want to do.  And you most certainly know that I enjoy watching things with you.

    To:  Wheeljack

Thank you.  I had contemplated comming you when I had woken from recharge, but I didn't want to bother you if you were sleeping.. though now I know that you were awake the entire time.  I suppose I feel a little embarrassed about that, but I promise you that I will message you or comm you any time I need you.

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   To: Ratchet

honestly, if doing advanced quantum-physical calculations and inverse quadratic logarithmns causes my processor to crash, i’d deserve it. im rusty but i aint that rusty, and if math is what does me in, then i obviously deserve to

   To: Ratchet

you arent denyin we're gonna do some hot and steamy stuff, though, so you know im game no matter what ;D

   To: Ratchet

you never bother me. even if its the middle of the night and i AM recharging, you should seen message me, cuz i'd much rather talk to you than sleep through something important