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   To: Ratchet

you’re kinda right. i wont lie, i started callin you that cuz i figured itd get on your nerves, but… well, yeah, you are my sunshine now. dunno how it happened but it did, and im glad for it

primus. aaand the award for the corniest fraggin thing said ever goes to wheeljack. please expect dumb love poems in the mail within six to eight vorns

   To: Ratchet

even if it aint impossible, it aint gonna stop me from tryin. we might have ups and downs but im gonna do my best to make sure that we have more ups than downs, cuz you deserve it

   To: Ratchet

i mean. if you wanna have sparklings. and this aint a definite thing of course, cuz - this thing we have is new and i dont wanna presume and honestly i never even thought bout sparklings and bringin em into a universe like this

honestly i dont even know why i brought it up
i know its a touchy thing for a lotta bots im sorry

forget i even said 'sparklings'

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I admit that at first it did at first, but now?  I don't mind it so much anymore.  At first I just gave up on trying to get you to not call me that, but now it's managed to hold a deeper meaning for you.. and for me as well.

I also look forward to seeing what you come up with for these poems you speak of.

    To:  Wheeljack

Thank you, but you deserve it too.  We've both been through so much, and I want to do everything I can to give you just as many good days.

    To:  Wheeljack

You don't have to apologize, Wheeljack.  It's alright, I promise.  I'm by no means upset with you.

The truth is.. I really do want to have sparklings.  I always have, but with this war..  I don't want them to have to grow up in such a bleak world, or to face the terrors we've had to face.  I want any child of ours to live the happiest life we could ever give them, free from the horrors of war, and I think we can do that.

We can always talk about it more if you want, but don't feel bad for bringing it up.  I wouldn't have been mad even if I had said no.  I care about you, and you can always talk to me about anything.

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   To: Ratchet

eh, dont hold your breath, i aint a poet by any means. it aint gonna be anything pretty lookin or smooth sounding or coherent


maybe a haiku? limerick?


a little sonnet with hearts drawn around it maybe ;D

   To: Ratchet

i just

   To: Ratchet

i never ever wanted sparklings. before the war things were just so… unfair. what with the caste system and all, plus i never envisioned myself as a creator anyways. and then the war happened and


who would ever bring a kid into this mess? who’d be so stupid to bring a kid into this fragged up universe

   To: Ratchet

but now i keep thinkin about it. i know i was jokin but. for the first time in my life i can actually envision myself settlin down and havin a kid, with you


i thnk one day, once this is all over, maybe we could. they could be named sunshine jr

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

Oh don't worry about it.  It's the thought that counts, really.  I'd be happy with anything you gave me, or wrote for me.

    To:  Wheeljack

I.. understand perfectly what you mean.  I never once believed the caste to be fair.. and I've always wondered how others had it.  I suppose you could say I was one of the lucky ones.. being of a higher caste as it was, but.. I don't want to brag about it, nor do I want to rub it in other's faces.  Never have I felt superior to anyone.  I very much wanted equality for all.. but I never wanted this spark forsaken war..

    To:  Wheeljack

I know some that would still have sparklings during a time like this.. but I never would want to place that burden on a child..  I feel horrible for the ones that have already had this war dropped on them.. who have been forced to take part in it.  It was never their problem to begin with.. and they never should have been forced into this way of life.

    To:  Wheeljack

One day.. we can.  And if you decide that you don't want to have a sparkling.. I'll respect that decision.  This is something that the both of us need to agree on if we want to do this, and I will not hassle you if you choose to not want to have a kid with me.  I'm perfectly ok with that, because I want you to be happy too.

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   To: Ratchet

i hung around with a lotta lower caste bots in my day, and a lot more bots agreed it was unfair… and i guess the only way to fix that kind of inequality is thru violence. aint sayin any of this is right, cuz the cons deserve the pits for what they’ve done, but i can see why some of em thought this was a good way t’fix things

   To: Ratchet

regardless, bringin a kid into this aint fair, cuz more an more younglings are warborn, and fightin is all they know. this aint their war, they never asked to come into this, you’re right

   To: Ratchet

one day.

i mean this aint some contract of minimum number of sparklings we gotta have that we gotta stick to or anything. just - a thought. a maybe. if and when this pitforsaken war ends, and we’re both still up for it (and its safe to bring a kid into the mix)... maybe. if you decide you dont wanna, or i decide i dont wanna, that’s good too

it’s just… good, i guess, to be able to imagine what might come after the war. it’s all so stupidly domestic and ridiculous too of course, cuz my con smashin days sure aint over yet but, yeah, one day. one day.

   To: Ratchet

still think we should call it sunshine jr

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

It's alright.  I can't blame you for how you felt during those times, yet I can't say I know how you felt either.  It would be wrong of me.. but I don't think poorly of your way of thinking back then, as well as how the others felt.  Everyone was so suppressed, so.. limited in terms of what they could and could not learn.

That's why I appreciated caste-free businesses, such as Maccadam's, when I was able to go.

    To:  Wheeljack

You don't know how relieved I am to hear you say that, or.. read as the case may be.  We both want any future child of ours to live a life free of war, and for all the right reasons.  I'm thankful for that.

Thank you for giving me the same option.  I want us both to be comfortable with this when the day comes, if it ever comes at all.  This is just as much my decision as it is yours, and I will never be upset with you if you don't want to have a sparkling when that time comes.  Even if it never happens, we at least took the time to think ahead and prepare ourselves for it.  Just thinking of a future with you puts my mind at ease.

    To:  Wheeljack

You would, wouldn't you?  I tell you what.. I may be willing to let you name the first sparkling.  If you really want to name them Sunshine Jr., I'm not going to stop you.  It'd be a meaningful name for the both of us to begin with.

    To:  Wheeljack

There's so many things I want to do with you, some that we could do any time, really.

How do you feel about dancing?  I'm not talking about the crazy dancing that people do nowadays, but just.. simple dancing.

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   To: Ratchet

what, no ‘wheeljack, we cant name our kid sunshine jr, thats a terrible name and im revoking naming privileges indefinitely’? sunshine, im shocked you think i should ever be in charge of namin another sentient being

   To: Ratchet

there are so many things i wanna do with you too, but some things can’t be done at any time ;DDDD

(plz insert fancy browplate wigglin here for maximum effect)

   To: Ratchet

dancin? heh, i guess i can say i dont really have much of an opinion cuz i have no idea how. it never really came up when i was at uni studyin, and then the war happened and- well, dont have much reason to be dancin on a battlefield, unless it's with cannons or swords

   To: Ratchet

i like the idea though. with you. dancing, that is. dunno if a bot like me can learn such fancy new tricks, but... i'd like to try, if it's with you

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I'm letting you this one time.  Consider this your 'freebie', but that doesn't mean that you can't make me change my mind down the road.  And who knows?  Maybe you will change your mind and want to name our first something different.  You would be surprised.

    To:  Wheeljack

You mean hot and steamy ceiling staring shenanigans?  I'm catching on to your ways.

Primus I swear every time I imagine you doing that, my faceplates heat up..

    To:  Wheeljack

I guess you could consider that dancing if you really wanted.

It's quite alright.  I can't fault you for that.  I.. used to a little in my younger days, but I certainly can't do half the things I used to anymore.. partially because it's been far too long.  Pharma taught me some things back at Delphi between lessons.

    To:  Wheeljack

I could teach you if you really wanted.  Even if we only slow dance, I would be alright with that.  Any time with you is more than enjoyable.

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   To: Ratchet

well if imagining me gettin up to hot and steamy ceiling staring is making you flustered, obviously im doing my job right ;D

   To: Ratchet

Oho, i can just see you bein quite the spry playbot in your youth. i bet you danced your way into the sparks of many mechs n femmes with your smooth medic moves. im sure with a bit of practice, you’ll loosen up those stiffened old joints, and ill be ur mostly-humble student

   To: Ratchet

all jokin aside, tho, id love to learn. dancin with you, that proper fancy stuff, sounds… good. Had no idea that pharma taught you that. Is there anything the old clanker didnt teach you?

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

You're becoming an expert at that, you know.  Getting a reaction out of me.

    To:  Wheeljack

Oh, hush!  I wasn't anything of the sort.  I would go to Maccadam's from time to time before I had left to study on Messatine.  You'd find just about anyone there, and not once was there ever a dull moment.  But of course.. when I returned from Messatine, the war was right on it's beginnings.

I'll do my best to show you what I know, but thank you.

    To:  Wheeljack

He didn't teach me how to fall for you.

There's plenty he didn't teach me, but I do have to admit that you're teaching me quite a bit yourself right now.

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   To: Ratchet

i know you werent anything of the sort but it’s still a very, very funny visual so im gonna cherish it anyways. indulge me, i gotta have somethin to laugh at ;DDD

   To: Ratchet

admittedly this is a ridiculous sappy moment and if any other wrecker knew bout this i’d be laughed into the next galaxy but.. you’ve taught me so much, too. you got no idea how much you’ve taught me, really

   To: Ratchet

… y’know, i was mostly jokin and teasin earlier but now i cant help but think about sparklings. i bet they’d take after you. bet they’d have your smile

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

I'm glad that I'm helping you laugh, just as you're helping me laugh as well.  I guess the both of us needed that.

    To:  Wheeljack

I.. have?  I can't possibly imagine what all that I've taught you, but I'd love to hear that from you.  It's not that I don't believe you.  I just never really saw myself as the best of teachers.

    To:  Wheeljack

So now you're serious?

You flatter me.  I honestly think that.. they may take more after you than me.  You love to have fun, and they would greatly appreciate that.  Sure, you can get a little crazy, but as long as we're all happy.. I suppose that's all that really matters in the end.

Not to mention, who's to say that they wouldn't have your good looks?

    To:  Wheeljack

I mean that, by the way.  I don't care about the scars.  You're.. quite attractive, I admit.

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   To: Ratchet

it’s gonna sound corny as all pit but… i think you taught me what it is to love again

dont laugh. and dont tell bulkhead he’ll laugh himself to the next galaxy

   To: Ratchet

i mean. i was also serious before. but just. heh. im markin it down in the calendar. ‘sunshine finally admitted i was drop dead gorgeous’. maybe even gettin it notarized ;D any kid of ours has gotta be twice as smart and twice as good lookin!

   To: Ratchet

i know its too early to even be thinkin bout this sorta thing but - well. my spark’s polarity’ll make it unlikely im gonna be a carrier. if we’re gonna have bitlets, i’ll probably be bein the sire

[Ratchet]

    To:  @wheeljack

No, Wheeljack.  I'm not going to laugh, nor am I going to tell Bulkhead.  That is not corny at all, but.. I never realized that I could have that much of an impact on you.  I'm more than happy to hear you say that, and to be honest.. I find it extremely touching.

I.. admit that I nearly gave up on the whole 'love' thing until you came around.  I'm so very glad that I waited for someone as loving as you.

    To:  Wheeljack

Naturally you would..

Regardless, I will be happy no matter how smart any sparkling of ours is and no matter what they look like.  It doesn't change the fact that we'd be family.

    To:  Wheeljack

Which would potentially leave me the most likely to carry.  It's quite alright.  If I should carry, then I could always ask Pharma to do the check-ups on the newspark, but if for some reason you should end up the carrier and I the sire.. then I can do them for you if that's what makes you comfortable.  I know we'll get through it all together, no matter what happens.  I promise.

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   To: Ratchet

i feel like if this were one of those rom coms mrs darby likes so much, this is when the corny love theme would start playin, cuz of all this sparkfelt confessing going on

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i doubt i’d be the carrier tho. i mean, you’ve seen the readings on my chart, this spark just aint gonna be doin that carrying thing anytime soon. but are you sure you’d be up for it? i know it aint an easy thing, and i also dont wanna do any assuming

   To: Ratchet

whatever happens, we’ll get through it together - cuz we’d be family

   To: Ratchet

heh. imagine pharma’s face if we got sparked. frag, imagine everyone else’s faces if we got sparked. i mean, after the war, cuz bringin a newspark into the mix now would be a Bad Idea, but

maybe ours could be the first born back home